Back on the weight loss track!

I’m responding to my highest weight with dedication to get back on track. I don’t want to be this heavy, it’s no way to live. I’ve been going to the gym with a friend and played tennis with my hubby. I can feel my muscles build. They are sore but want to stretch and move. I haven’t felt this way since a time when I went to the gym every other day for 3 months straight! I’m pretty dedicated but I know I think “this is it!” every time I begin again. Slow and steady wins the race so I won’t let slip ups defeat me.  I’m dedicated to calorie counting and portion control (which is made easy when you eat small snacks between meals – Duh!). I’m also going to sign up for a belly dancing class (I did it before, great for mid section .

I’m not an affiliate so I don’t get paid for recommending these books I just want to share the great books I’ve found. You know how hard it is to sort through the crap out there. Enjoy:

I’ve been listening to some helpful books on tapes that are inspirational. I like The Lazy Girl’s Guide to Losing Weight and Getting Fit by AJ Rochester. She lost 8 dress sizes and has a fun personality. She also wrote a memoir of her weight loss experience in Confessions of a Reform Dieter. She was sexually abused, adopted and destructive in her youth. I think she is easy to relate to and has a great sense of humor.

I thought I’d also try listening to The Self-Hypnosis Diet. A friend recommended it to me and said she has kept off 10 lbs. The reviewers for seem to have also kept about 15 lbs off. It sounds like this book is good for a 10 lbs. weight loss, so why not?

The top 2 books I’d personally recommend is The Beck Diet Solution (cognitive therapy, not a diet) and Skinny Bitch (crude language but good argument for healthy eating). Very helpful! 5 stars for them both!

I’ve decided to take notes on the key points I thought were helpful and post time in the near future. I’m also going to post the calorie counting .xls (excel) documment I use for everyone to use.

iFat

iFat, I’m fat, fat , fat, FAT! And nothing reminds one of how FAT they are more than HEAT! We heat up fast, move less and wear less. Wearing less becomes a constant reminder of what I’m embarrassed about or how big my tummy roll REALLY IS. I think it’s easy for me to be in denial of how fat I really am because my clothes kinda hide it. I mean, I’m still xyz big but the yucky detains of it stay under the radar like how my thighs rub together or how much of my jelly roll I can grab. I know this is probably too detailed for some of you, I know I’m gettin’ sick.
So what now? Back on “the wagon”… *sigh*… it kinda seems pointless because I always try hard and do well and fail around week 3. I swear I’ve done that like 10x.  I know you’re probably thinking there are other issues at play. I thought that too so in the last few years I’ve tried hard to work through all my “issues” psychologically. I know I eat out of anxiety sometimes and I’ve reduced my anxiety almost completely. I’ve educated myself about nutrition and the importance of calorie counting. On top of all this I’m at an amazing point in my life where all my worries have gone away and all my dreams (well, the realistic ones) have come true! I am the happiest I’ve ever been (no, I’m not on anti-depressants, this is the real deal). The only thing left is weight loss. I feel like I’m the most “in shape” a person who loses weight can be but not physically. I’ve  even checked with doctors to make sure my body isn’t working against me. IF ANYTHING my blood sugar was a little high in 1/3 checks and I’m iron deficient.  I take iron pills and only feel “tired” when PMSing. So, what’s wrong? WHY???? I think I lose motivation cuz I get stressed. This time round my Sweety will go to the gym with me but a limited amount of times. This will be good on those days that I don’t feel like going. We shall see….

Dos Plan

I’m going to try a slightly new approach to weight loss. I’m going to try to be really analytical about it. I’ve been counting calories but I think this will be really easy to stick to if I have a very specific plan with real numbers to watch. I know part of being successful at any goal, especially weight loss, is being specific about your steps and milestones. I think a lot of us don’t get to this step. I think having something on paper will help keep my motivated. Right now I’m struggling with some back pain. Anyone who has had back pain before knows how disabling it can be. It’s kind of a Catch22; I have back pain because of my weight, but I can’t workout much because I have back pain. *sigh* Don’t worry, I’m hanging in there and trying to keep on track (with caution).