Emotional Eating

About 3 weeks ago I started back “on the horse” and have been eating well and getting some exercise. I’ve noticed my nails are stronger and longer. This is amazing since they usually break and crack by now. Well this last week I’m ashamed to say I’m “falling off the horse”. I’m really stressed. My husband and I have to move suddenly (landlord stopped paying his mortgage), there are bunch of little dramas surrounding this sudden move, my coworker is a jerk and much more. I know this isn’t an excuse to eat. I’ve always thought I’m not an emotional eater. I figured it meant you sit in front of your fridge eating it clean every time you cry. I am one for sure but not in that way. I get stressed or anxious (I do have a bit of an anxiety problem from time to time) and my consciousness blacks out and awakens to find me angrily shoveling bad food in my mouth. This seriously happens, no exaggeration here. The little whimper of a conscious asks me “Why I don’t stop? Why not AT LEAST angrily eat a carrot?” The only answer that comes is “Because that won’t ease the pain” Interesting, huh? I think sweets and other bad food do, for whatever reason, calm my anxiety or upset. Healthy food doesn’t seem to have that effect. I can remember being on a diet where I eat healthily for about a month and a half (week 3 is usually my falling off point so this was a victory). Food was depressing! It was healthy but it seemed the only healthy food I can eat was cold and tasteless. No yummy steak, no yummy soup. I can’t explain it but eating all the healthy food makes my physically depressed. Mentally I was happy I was being so good. I guess this is why it didn’t work. SO, obviously my main hurdle is to find a way to tame the upset beast so I won’t be thrown from the horse every time. I know they say working out helps. It doesn’t seem to work for me but it’s worth trying again. The new place we’re moving to has a gym and is closer to the gym I’m paying for.